The Healing Relationships event started seamlessly. As I introduced the event to the participants, I felt strong surge of energy in my body. Felt like the source energy came down in my body and spoke through me. Physically, in the vibration of love I felt overwhelming emotions of oneness for my soul sisters and brothers that made it hard for me to speak and express with my tears that represented oneness. In the next hour or so, we consciously danced with playfulness like little children, sometimes like adults expressing our sensuality and at other times like friends simply celebrating our connection. We progressed to the guided meditation part of the event. At that point my guide showed me only two things – snow covered mountains and ancestral healing around relationships. I weaved the two together and channeled the meditation. We all worked through the energy of the themes that play out in our intimate relationships that are common in our entire lineage. It is mind blowing recognition of how similar our relationships are with our parent’s marriage. We closed out the meditation with receiving permission and blessings from ancestors and parents to release any persistent pattern that the entire lineage has been unconsciously feeling. We don’t have to experience the same old relationship patterns in our lives. It is neither our conscious energy, nor our truth.
Even though the meditation felt perfect, I felt a bit of unconscious energy frizzling in. After meditation we did sharing with our partners which also went very smoothly. I was still feeling a bit “non-senior”(not showing up in my full power) at this point too, but everything worked out.
We moved into the Breathwork segment and as everyone settled down in their breathing process, I saw healing taking place at all levels. Many spirits in the form of their guides and deceased loved ones came forward to assist. My own team of healing guides went to each person to help them heal resistances and stuck energy. As everyone took circular, connected breaths through their mouth, I saw the entire gamut of energies releasing. From folks releasing resistance (to life and living) that freezes them with the fear of death to releasing intense past lives of severe control that bring up dominating suicidal thoughts.
As a conscious group of breathers, all of us let go the feeling of unworthiness (I am not worthy of being loved) that gets in the way of receiving love and not enoughness (I can never succeed at fulfilling the needs of others) that in giving our very best to our partners. I held the participants in love like babies as they processed and released these intense energies. Based on the spirit guidance, I wrapped up the event by channeling Christ grid energy of forgiveness and validation. By the end, I felt drained and exhausted - very much physically and mentally. My lower abdomen, pelvis and hips were still hurting. It was a fantastic event, everyone felt lighter and clearer, except for this last part of course. We all exchanged hugs and said good bye to each other.
In the end, the participants only saw me leading this event, but in reality, it was an entire team of spiritual healers, guides and ancestors that flowed their energy through me and assisted me through physical and energetic means.