My sweet little angel Prakriti,
At this point, we are only four days away from our official due date. I am feeling great and excited to meet you very soon. There is a deep desire to connect with you more and more each day. I am definitely making use of this time to meditate more and establishing stronger communication with you at the soul to soul level. Not sure if you feel it yet, but I have never felt this strongly connected with anyone before.
I want to take a moment to express my deep gratitude to you for choosing me as your mother. It has been an absolute honor to carry you in my womb and heart for last nine months. I am beyond excited to wrap you in my arms full of deep love for you. I am thrilled about all the lessons that we are set to learn together and I want to learn from you as much as possible. Sometimes I am in disbelief on how I could be so fortunate to have you as my daughter, my absolutely amazing partner in crime. I think together we are going to make a strong and dynamic mother-daughter duo. :)
Throughout your life, you’ll probably hear the story around your conception and birth many many times from your dad and myself. Therefore, I will skip all those glorious details in this letter. Rather, I will keep your truth and essence as my focus for now.
Around five months before you were conceived, your father, brother and I were enjoying a beautiful moment together and suddenly your name came intuitively to me. My inner voice was very loud and strong almost claiming this name for you. When I reflect back, I realize how perfectly this name fits your personality and the lessons that you have decided to learn and teach in this lifetime. Your name, Prakriti, signifies the feminine aspect of existence, the personified will and energy of the Supreme. It is the essential constituent of the universe and is at the basis of all the activity of the creation. I recognize the beautiful feminine energy that you carry and your decision to live your life full of courage and strength. I can already see how your life will be an example of authentic living based on truth and integrity to everyone around you.
I also realize that I am bringing you in a patriarchal society, where men are in authority over women. We are considered the weaker gender and we are told over and over again how men are better than women in their abilities. Just know in your heart, the primal feminine energy is so strong and powerful that a lot of people get threatened by it. The best response their egos find is to either dominate or instill doubt about our own magnificence. You may be judged based on your looks, your diet or your dressing sense. You may be ridiculed for your skin color, your body type, your academic performance, your career choices, your sexual orientation, your religious choices, your spiritual values. This list can go on and on as no matter what you’ll do, people will always have their judgments.
These judgments can create many moments of doubt in your mind. In these times of doubt, I want you to remember that you are powerful beyond measure. I want you to understand that most people on this planet judge others due to unconscious energy. Something in them hasn’t healed yet, which manifests on outside as judgments towards others. At the end of the day, you bear no responsibility of pleasing anyone or making anyone happy. You are only responsible for living your life based on your truth and joy; however you’d like to manifest it in this lifetime.
Allow no man or woman to tell you what’s right or wrong based on their messed up family programming and cultural and religious conditioning. The more judgments you get, take that as an opportunity to shine even brighter. Take these moments as occasions to remind everyone the truest meaning of your name, essence and the strength by which you decide to carry it forward in your life.
When making decisions, have faith that as long as you listen to your inner voice and live a life authentic to your soul level truth, there is no wrong or right choice. At the end of the day, your happiness and joy matter the most. Trust me when I say this, there is nothing more important to your mother than seeing you embracing your truth and living it day in and day out. Recognizing your beautiful soul essence, I am already very proud of who you are and nothing you could ever do or not do to change that. This unconditional pride and love that I carry within my heart for you is solid as a rock. No matter what mock up you decide to manifest in this lifetime, your mother will be your loudest and strongest cheer leader. That’s my promise to you. :)
With abundant love,
September 19th 2016 - 6 PM Pacific