Humble Beginnings

In the past, I’ve always wanted to look good on social media with my triumphs and celebrations, but today I want to push past my fears and express not only my good but also my bad experiences with equal transparency. This post is one such attempt to be vulnerable as I continue to bring my raw authentic “human” self forward.

As I walk on my path, I am experiencing many moments of humbleness. New learning is taking place in every moment as I am getting comfortable in being a spiritual entrepreneur. I am truly grateful for these lessons as they are allowing me to release my ego bit by bit.

Last weekend, I had my very first group breathwork event. I gave a 30 min talk on the Clarity breathwork process and how it works. I spoke to the audience from my heart.
- With knowledge, I explained them the full process and what to expect while breathing.
- With truth, I shared mine and my client’s experiences of transformation.
- With love, I answered every question that came up on their minds.
- With acceptance, I welcomed the sharing of their thoughts.

Four people attended the free talk and three walked right out after I finished. In this moment my ego riled up, feeling the rejection from everyone. I immediately took their action as an invalidation of my speaking and healing abilities. Fortunately I did not react in the moment, but I was aware of several thoughts of rejection and invalidation running through my mind. The one person who was still in the room came to me saying that he wants to do the process with me, but doesn’t have money to pay. The ego hit back again wanting to be fairly compensated for its time. Therefore, I let that person go saying that we can connect when he has money to pay. I stayed in the room for a few more moments, but no one else showed up.

Overcome with the feeling of failure and with the devastation caused by my ego, I packed my bags and decided to go back home. There was a lot of stuff to carry to my car, so I took two trips. When I came back to my car to get the remaining items the second time around, I saw three people outside the room waiting for me. After exchanging pleasantries, they mentioned that they wanted to do Breathwork with me.

Wait, what? Is this a dream? Someone pinch me please! J As I heard their words, I took this as a sign from the universe wanting me to continue offering my gifts in the world. This sign is very special since it came at a time when I felt disheartened. Later on, I facilitated the healing with my full heart, leadership, love and presence. At the end of the session, the participants walked away with incredible releases. On both sides it was one of the most profound experiences of our lives. I will share more details around this healing in my next post.

From the lows of my wounded ego to the highs of being guided by the universe to serve the world, every moment is equally humbling.

Every moment is allowing me to:

• Uncover the layers of ego that desire a sense of security, praise and validation from others.
• Discover my human side and see how deep the lack mindset runs through many years of programming.
• Understand how my monkey mind always wants to drive validation of work through numbers (# of clients, amount of money etc.)

​Every time I release a layer of ego:

• I feel grateful for the expanded awareness of the ego.
• I feel fully grounded in my purpose of serving the world.
• I am brought closer to purity – the experience in which the heart and soul unite and affirm my choices

​Here is to new beginnings. Here is to the humble beginnings.